life just sucks right now

Okay so my life officially sucks ass!!  After our fertility dr appt I call my mom to tell  her about the appt saying how he is hopeful even though I only have 1 tube, and she stops me and sais I remember they took out the oppoosite ovary as well don't you remember? WTF no I dont!!! I have spent 14 years dealing with my decreased chances and all of a sudden I dont even have a matched set!  Long story short I have been a wreck for a couple weeks and my husband was visiting his parents where his sister is living with the baby she didnt even try for.  My life has felt like crap lately.  I went to a new regular dr today and the form has you fill out past surgeries I put right ovary and left fallopian tube removed, she then asks me well you definetly don't have any kids.  I then state well we are trying and she then tells me how is possible.  I proceed to burst into tears I feel like I am giving up hope.