There is always something to stress about

So AF just showed up.  I'm dissapointed in a weird way.  I and DH have decided that we want to keep trying, but not spend our lives and life savings in the Doctors office.  I don't feel like I have given up, but it does.  It has definetly relieved a lot of pressure off of myself.  My infertile brain was saying to myself at about 8 dpo, hey I haven't been stressed about it maybe this is going to be it!! Whatever.  My sister in law didn't invite me to my nephews Birthday.  I'm sure I pissed them off again in some way that I don't even remember or care to.  I am so tired of trying with my brothers, and they don't even give a shit. I live 3 hours away, and I am the one who always has to drive.  The last time I saw my brothers was when I went to one of their sons basketball games (three hours for a game).  I love being an Aunt.  I know I was stupid when I was younger we all were, but let me grow up and move on from my mistakes!! I am sure that I will blog about the relationship with my brothers which is twisted, and screwed up, and frustrating because no matter how they ignore me for months and treat me like shit, I still love them and I know I will always love them more than they love me.